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being chinese new year's eve, i have to stay up late to keep my parents alive for a longer period of time, and in so doing, up my monthly upkeep payments in their old age.

how pessimistic. but really, parents are your the first people you ever get to know well, and they love you so much. even to the point of being at fault. sometimes, most people never learn how to treasure their parents, and never appreciate them. some people i know lament at their parent's "protectiveness", longing for freedom. others are more materialistic, relying on their parents for money.

i believe these are all just loose talk, for everyone, deep down, will still really respect their parents. why then, are there abandoned old folks at homes? why are there disputes over wills, inheritances and property? perhaps we really need to reexamine ourselves, and note that our parents are still the most important people in our lives. ever.

i write this because of the need to for families in society today. 50% of USA children come from single parent homes; in singapore, the percentage is more 2/5 of all families are divorced/single parent. sometimes i wonder among my friends, who would end up in this state? i really do not know. children in single parent families have the tendency to end up as single parents themselves. perhaps it's society today, with a gravitation towards self fulfilment and selfish thoughts. that's our society that my generation inherits.

take my family. on the surface, everything is fine. but i remember back in sec 4, i was a total rebel. in fact, my mum went overseas to study because she couldn't stand my nonsense anymore. thank god she was fine with september 11th happened. i think i'll never forgive myself if she was at WTC 4 years ago.


my uncle is estranged from my grandparents; precisely, it's his wife, my aunt who has in-law problems. well, i haven't seen them in years, and i only see them once a year, during chinese new year. same to all the extended family. i have 2 divorced aunts, 1 unmarried aunt, 2 single parents all in the family. how nice. and how sad for the children, who have to live with the stigma and the hurt for all their lives. i can attest to that, for i know the pain of those who live in silence and in hurt.

perhaps duty to oneself is more important to this generation than duty to society and family. some people mask their feelings behind a veneer of happiness and irrelevancy.

(sidenote: it's Chinese New Year. On the dot. Happy New Year.)

happiness: faked? most people can't tell, unless they are emotionally tuned to that person's feelings and are genuinely interested in people in general. that veneer of faked feelings can easily be breached, i feel. well, i'm an ENFP. Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling and Perceiving.

ENFPs are friendly folks. Most are really enjoyable people. Some of the most soft-hearted people are ENFPs.

ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Som etimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped.

One study has shown that ENFPs are significantly overrepresented in psychodrama. Most have a natural propensity for role-playing and acting.

ENFPs like to tell funny stories, especially about their friends. This penchant may be why many are attracted to journalism. I kid one of my ENFP friends that if I want the sixth fleet to know something, I'll just tell him.

ENFPs are global learners. Close enough is satisfactory to the ENFP, which may unnerve more precise thinking types, especially with such things as piano practice ("three quarter notes or four ... what's the difference?") Amazingly, some ENFPs are adept at exacting disciplines such as mathematics.

Friends are what life is about to ENFPs, moreso even than the other NFs. They hold up their end of the relationship, sometimes being victimized by less caring individuals. ENFPs are energized by being around people. Some have real difficulty being alone , especially on a regular basis.

One ENFP colleague, a social worker, had such tremendous interpersonal skills that she put her interviewers at ease during her own job interview. She had the ability to make strangers feel like old friends.

ENFPs sometimes can be blindsided by their secondary Feeling function. Hasty decisions based on deeply felt values may boil over with unpredictable results. More than one ENFP has abruptly quit a job in such a moment.

complete link here

that's me alright. i am a "close enough" learning, never perfect, very friendly to most people (unless i hate you a lot) (see my below post for more information), and intuitive. some people say i am a busybody. oh well, everyone has their own right to think. and i reserve my right about myself. i lived my life with my principles and my morals. well, i love people alright, and i guess i suffer from the extrovert symptom: every thinks i'm out with someone and thus they don't ask me out. how sad. and i stay home:) hehe. *hint hint all*

anyway, enought of such musings. i shall carry on my deep and unconnected thoughts at a later date. on a lighter note: happy new year to all. good luck in the year of the chicken!

P.S. don't share hotmail passwords. trust me. i know.
P.P.S i wanna watch constantine. anyone up for it?

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